Its been almost half a yr since you hv been gone... im tired of crying im tired of being sad but i cant help it. Each time i think of u, i jus feel like my world is crashin down. I think of how happy u are wo me in your life, i feel like i have been the burden in your life. I wished tt i could hv made u happier...  but i couldnt.

U mean the world to me, no one will ever know. How i always admire couples who can post lovey dovey things publicly and how we never did. U dont know my desire for you to make me urs. To claim me as yours but u never did... all i want is u to be proud of me and for me to be part of your life. And for you to be part of my life...

All i wanted was some assurance of love, some effort for u to talk to my frens n fam. How i envy ur frens who are couples who proudly talk to their g/bfrens mum, who are ready to be in their lives.... how i wish i could hv live my life again. Maybe... the one wasnt meant to be u. Because even if i didnt made tt mistake, we would still come to this end...

I stupidly believe in that reason. N i finally realise tt yes it is not possible. But my mind cant convince my heart. My heart is dead. It will always be. Till that special stranger comes n find me in Gods will...