Haha hate it when its at night when my mind starts to wonder then i start thinking about getting high and acting silly

Every girl needs some love. All that pretense is easy when no one bothers about you. When they finally do, you realise you rather they leave u alone. Thats how life is. Its always to late to make amends.

Just a few days ago. I found some lumps in my throat and thought about the worse case senario. Thought about if i were to die soon what would i do? If i have to go through chemo would i?

I think i wont. Think i will just live normally until my body stops fighting all together and i will just die.

What should i do to live my life to the fullest. Do the things i wan to do. Dress the things i wanna dress.

Life is a whirlpooll. If u get sucked in you die. If u stay above you survive. Wat a nice analogy tot by me. Haha. Okays lame.

brAin deadd#