Tuesday, September 22, 2009
11:47:00 PM
i know i will just never be good enough. it was the same with yun zhi. and now her. i mean i tried before then i tried to be more like myself but none work. when u complain abt her, to me u are like tt too w guys. isnt it. like so funny. i cant high w u when tog because in a grp there can only be a main leader highin, thats y when u are high im neutral there to support. dont u und. i cant tell wats in ur brain. i guess we are jus diff because i nv experience that kinda true friendship. friendship means sth that means another thing to u. so maybe i jus lower my standards because ppl cant meet it. yes, to me everyone who is nice is a good fren. but u wan sth deeper. i know its impt but its really not possible in our world alr.
i tot hard and long when ppl chat. they always have a qn to ask or sth. only that fren will chat randomly. and its nice. its nice to have a christian fren that cares. at least we know we have God tog on our side. but then he is in army. so the encouragement can only come on weekends. tell me why?
im searching for an ans. for a question that i dont even know what it is. why is that so. i feel so freakin useless.
im finding and looking for a familiar face in that crowds, all i see is ppl zooming past me, faceless, emotionless.
what has the world turn to.
superficial
unrealistic
no, there must be someone smiling deep from the heart
just need to look deeper,
God will put that person there jus for me. i believe...
i pray.
one day i will see u for who u are. not be tricked by all tt nonsense.
because u look at everyones bad side ,
tts y no one will measure up. thats wat i think.
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i tot hard and long when ppl chat. they always have a qn to ask or sth. only that fren will chat randomly. and its nice. its nice to have a christian fren that cares. at least we know we have God tog on our side. but then he is in army. so the encouragement can only come on weekends. tell me why?
im searching for an ans. for a question that i dont even know what it is. why is that so. i feel so freakin useless.
im finding and looking for a familiar face in that crowds, all i see is ppl zooming past me, faceless, emotionless.
what has the world turn to.
superficial
unrealistic
no, there must be someone smiling deep from the heart
just need to look deeper,
God will put that person there jus for me. i believe...
i pray.
one day i will see u for who u are. not be tricked by all tt nonsense.
because u look at everyones bad side ,
tts y no one will measure up. thats wat i think.
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