just went toread someone's blog. and it just brought some memories. bittersweet. i dont know. i think i shld learn to keep a friendship. i realise that the friendships i have started off not bad then as the time goes its just goes off too. i dont know why. whenever im caught in a odd number friendship i always feel like im tearing this friend away from another friend. then the natural instinct i will draw away. and i know a particular friend who adores another particular friend. no matter how hard i try to be there. sometimes i just feel all weird. each time i feel like just spending time alone with her it seems so hard to. then i realise that its not possible at all. so i just have to let it go. why spoil a friendship of 2 people when they are all happy together? i dont know too. coming in from the start is a wrong choice. the time at the airport was a wrong turn. i should not have suggested it. despite all these im glad for the friendship. but im sorry. i dont think it will last. times now come when we see each other, just tryin to find the words to say. its so hard that i dont even feel like seeing coz there will just be nothing to say. i dont wanna feel that kind of hurt again. just let me go away from the friendship. allowing it to bloom was wrong.

everything is wrong to begin with.

something happened today too. i saw sth i wished i haven seen.