well. there are many types of friends that i have. some are people that i know i wil still be close to them even if we dont talk for a week. these are the people i know i can pms with them and they will know how to respond to put me back in track.

some are people that i know i cant survive wo seein everyday. like those that i stick with in council. dont know what i will do wo them. its the kind of lost that is hard to explain.

no matter which grp u belong to, i guess a sincere thank you is what i wanna say.

anw wanna say abt the usher. honestly i felt rather irritated. some one said that all excos will be down for usher. well i tot that it was like compulsory and we cant b slos. in the end we had to go for interview. i felt that it was de-grading ourselves. when the interviewer asked me " why did i want to be an usher?" i really wanted to say i didnt want to. im forced to. then i tot abt what joel said. what jiayi said, then i realise its yet again a responsiblity. so i gave what i knnow i would say if i wanted the job. like new experience. showcase Meridians. blah blah blah. if im ggg to be a slo i dont even have to go through this. this is really unfair. haha

then back to the point of fairness. i guess its always a relative term. so forget it.

and sth to change. i realised its "mirage of utopia" yupp.