many things to say. comments abt the camp. but in summary it brought me back to reality that this family is the one i survive my jc life with. there's nth more - to hate or to love, its a personal choice. i with i have chosen the latter but i think its too late to turn back now. with only 3 days left. i think let it die, let it die. and. im really sorry to the people i offended on the last day. i know theres a lot coz whenever im in that mood no matter what i say, it comes out back and snappy. y? i dont know too. i tried so hard to make it sound nice. but ahh its still srewed up. sorry yunji qw and kelly. and thnx kelly for not being the one who return pissed mood with pissed attitude. LOL. thats y i know i cant talk on any longer before i irritate u. LOL.

anw. yes. because of the camp. i decided. i will come for investiture. despite my previous convicted stand that im not coming. i realise im coming because my passion for this council. not for the people. i will imagine my ideal council life. and thats what im gg for investiture for. the ideal. i still cant believed i cried during the campfire. and im glad no one noticed. coz i dont wish to explain myself. the memories of each event just came back. and yes. its a long long journey.

and this song, eeach time i think abt stepping down. it comes to mind. " im going home, to a place where i belong.." i think thats where i really belong. council is not for me. no. im not meant for council. yupp.

and my dream. the one i had before i join council is gone. gone with the wind. i only hope that the no 6ths. those who have the same dream will live towards it. and make the best,and to nina, sam and joseph.