i hv been wantin to blog about this as the year comes to almost an end. lookin back,i see my council road. when i first picked up the form. i can say its on an impulse coz my fren wanted to join and since im easily excited, i tot " y not? jus go try and hv fun lo. no harm ma." but at that point of time its more of like pei-in him to go. irony is that i got in and he didnt. what a joke to play on us. at that moment... feels like i drift away from all my frens in mj that i known prev- other than my present class. yupp. when i got in, i had one aim in mind, one goal that hopefully MJ can reach when i step down. when i told it to a snr her comment was like "it wont happen de. u'll only think abt it b4 u enter. when u get in, its a diff story. all of them had big dreams when they enter, yet, none was accomplished due to restrictions they faced by *ishallnotmentionwhat*" now, the ans hits me bcoz till now what i wanted to reach seems like a so far off dream. nowhere near it. hahas. imagine i still tot that i can make the first step for it to happen, then the next council make another step, then soon it'll happen. LOL. how dumb can i get. there are so many things limited in this sch. there are so many things that are probably out of bounds to us. which is so CRAP. oh man. okays. ps: i know i hv said so much abt the dream. LOL. but im not gonna say what it is. lOL

okays. so now on the road of council. not in SA, not in PA. neutral they call it. haha. i can make a joke out of it then. okay. well. being invested seems like mth oor even ages ago. and. steppin down seems so near. being o1 2nd ic but it feels like im not doin enough. whats enough? can anyone tell me? i really hv no idea. haha. apparently by mr hon's definition, its sth like when u hv already given in your best. hahas. thats i think i hv not achieved. but it feels like i wont be able to. somehow like im not max-in my potential. but i dont know how to max it. lol . or did i jus overestimate myself? mygosh, that wud be bad. LOL. nvm. that i'll think another day.

well. i shall look forward to a new day at sch tml. haha. when its gonna be mass dance, pw and more mass dance and pw. YEAH! i love to SLACKK. feels so good:D cheers man. oh. and suddenly tot of sth. maybe next time when i come on9 i shall not sign in msn. then it'll prevent a lot of unfortunate incidents. lOL. hopefully*

to those orientation games ic, various ics thanks for puttin in so much for the proosals. really.appreciate ur enthusiasm. puts me to shame. LOL . be it u r doin it for orientation or for us ics. really thankful!!! :D all the way. ppl. u guys are doin GREAT!!!

i wanna fly to that place*//

i wanna catch some hope~