wow. really need to blog. cant take it anymore. i think its no longer abt havin control , taking charge. but its abt making things such that no one gets unhappy. and... its so hard to do so. some will be upset ultimately. argh. dont understand y im given this role. bcoz u ppl see potential in me or? jus random ppl? well. nvm. i'll make the best out of it. do i look like i hv a choice? rrr. i'll give my best. yes . i'll. n ppl . if my temper is like bleh. jus smack me. i'll wake up. lol.