basically let's start frm ... 25th. well. i got at 5am. wanted to reach sch as early to complete the noticeboard. meet up with jiayu and yu cheng. then erm, 3 of us walked up. was super coolin and there was e cresent moon. somehow it gives me the blues again, but then again i get to marvel at the beautifully made sky. its really great. wish i hv the guts to walk up alone esp since im frightened of dogs... so i was v much lookin forward and it was comfortin to know that christen was there too. and, when we all doin the board before flag-raisin, (anyone tt look into our cls can see) it was like there was a unspoken bond among us. and its like arnd 10 ppl frm DIFF cliques doin one board. hahas. then ... on and on goes the drag-gy day. i dont like thurs coz there's like phys, lit... argh. but thnx God that many teachers allow us to do the board durin e lesson time. somehow i feel that they all trusted us a lot. then yu cheng started sth abt e prata party... was kinda pathetic coz only 7 ppl in total. hahas. i was quite pissed at that tme coz e ppl refuse to go quicklyand i had to rush back for cca too. well then i was complainin to jing. poor her!! SO, i went to buy e stuff with jing first then went to meet the other 5 ppl. then, wenki tell me rehearsal start le.. then i didnt wanna pon le. SO, i went to meet the rest, knew that i wont be able to stay there and eat in peace, SO, i jus told them i wanted to go back first... ended up runnin back and thinkin abt dogs. (haha!) guess what, by tt time, first rehearsal end le. my cca ppl at pac already.. then of all the ppl in e world, laoban has to be there, then i think i was frownin with tt ap look. oh wells. hack.

then 2nd rehearsal. the finale really cheered me up. i tot i shld give a smile or laugh so at e rehearsal finale was super high.. then someone was like sayin all those nice stuffs. awww! hahas. m glad though.

then... abt the reunion lunch. im so srry for pon-in again. i really dont feel belonged in cd sec4 anymore. sometimes i go to cca with the feelin of my flesh is there but my heart is not. im srry for all those times i ap u all. i finally understand what intelligent fren and teo-ch meant abt bein left out durin gong yan. thats what i feel now. abt cls and cca, whats top nopw i dont know. many ppl hv said tt time in cca more important and valuable coz u spend 4 yrs there but cls... only 2 yrs... somehow i dont agree. i feel that im puttin more effort in my cls. ye shu yi ge bu hao de dong xi bi jiao zhi de wo men de guan zhao yu shi jian, dan yin wei zhe yang, wo men ye jiu hu lie le ling wai yi fang mian...

intelligent frn, i know u were unhappy at me.... thats why i hv to keep e smiles on my face and pretend everythin is okay, like its normal. dont ask me to explain my behaviour for i cant too. aall i wanna say is that thnx for bein relatively forgivin.. and bring me back pls. i wanna feel part of e batch. i'll play my part by attendin those meetings too, but i dont wanna keep up with the pretense...

im sorry

erm, then today cny.wanted to go super early again. hahas. say im crazy.. lolx. ended draggin yu cheng to go with me BUT he overslept. so met up jing and huimn too. hahas. THEN, there's this dog that barked for no apparent reason. scare me la! i jus jumped to e other side of yu cheng... :C yuppp. then go sch... wished mrs tan happy cny. watched e performance. i think some ppl dont deserve to be on stage. its like all low quality. and my cls didnt win e noticeboard. so does what we say b4 tt counts? hahas. i wonder if we r goin to do anymore of it. it feels as though our efforts are wasted. and all those classes that won had de theme "xilerongrong" . welll .. nvm. shall not dwell on e past. lolx.

okays. then aft cny. went out apparently. hahas. took foto with my 2nd kor. cool. went out with darlin.. then met his fren. so amusin!! its like e way he speaks his mind, u feel as though there's no hiddden intention.. and their frenship is so deep and real. my pri6 best fren... when we meet, we still talk but somehow its still diff. nvm.

hahas. i think ai de zhang men ren is like crap. make the idea of lurve into something so fairytale, so unbelievable...
lurve makes us grow?
lurving you gives me happiness. without u, i feel that happiness is take frm me. quoted".
to that person out there (though u might not be readin) buyaobawodexindaizhou. woxiangxinruguowomenhuxiangyongtongyangdeyanguangmenduiai,nanyiqiejiubuyoudewomenkongzhile.

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