Friday, May 20, 2005
8:30:00 PM
hahas. what am i? i dont know. so demoralised over my results. Is that the best i can get? hahas. im the lowest in class lo. and its like much worst then many double sci ppl. not tt i discriminate but look, if ppl know my crappy results and tt im frm trip sci, it wud be such a disgrace. i dont belong there do i? now i know y i detest 3h coz i dont fit in with my crappy results. no brains, no nothing. hahas
this is the first time that i get so low for maths for mid-yrs in my entire life lo. serious. i mean i hv fail tests but i dont get such low marks for mid-yrs. and look arnd me all those ppl, WOWS! so pro. hahas. i bet my L1R5 will just get like above 20 then whooohooo! HAHAS! im getting mad. so depressing. jus when i was hopin but well i deserve it dont i?
anw, now i learnt my lesson. cant trust anyone. not anymore. no one is reliable except yourself. in order to win, dont depend on others, trust yourself. that's it! hypocrites are all i see. i dont know how to look beyond anymore. why am i so stoopid? i refuse to believe in what i see but... now, U HAVE PROVED ME WRONG! seein is believin! Yes! hahas.
yups. i dislike them. i can openly say it in my blog. if u guys are unhappy, come and fight! dont gossip like the world owns u. u all r NOTHING! i dont hv to act like a mouse and listen to you all. i stand for my own rights, esp what i deserve. i think i dont need to have such lousy ******* [to prevent unhappiness] in our sch! i cant wait for the day... hahahas. im gettin rebellious? hmm, its in my blood. too bad. all these i believe is said in anger but that's really what i feel ... and itts just so irritatin to see u ppl get ur own way. jus coz no1 stand up to u ppl doesnt mean tt u ppl are right!
Argh! ArGh! ARGh!ARGH!!!
my heart is shattered into a million pieces,
and my hope dangles on a string.
There is nothing that i can do to help,
but stare aimlessly at the sky.
How i wish i wasnt born into this earth,
where all i see is suffering and pain.
Everything, everyone is hurting hard,
yet, no one wants to admit it...
What is life to me then?
Oh how i wish...
I wish i wasnt born at all,
for im not strong enough.
I cant endure it by myself,
for my heart is faint.
I have no hope in others,
for hope doesnt exist.
I wish, i wish...
all these are nothing but wishes...
hahas. A youth teacher once ask me, " if u wish for sth, will u try to make it happen? " i said," sometimes..." hahas. this make me wonder if i wish that i wasnt born, can i try to make it happen? hahas. i think it's beyond my own means. if one day i disappear... then maybe my wish come true. then, u ppl can give thnx to God for im gone!!! :D
this is the first time that i get so low for maths for mid-yrs in my entire life lo. serious. i mean i hv fail tests but i dont get such low marks for mid-yrs. and look arnd me all those ppl, WOWS! so pro. hahas. i bet my L1R5 will just get like above 20 then whooohooo! HAHAS! im getting mad. so depressing. jus when i was hopin but well i deserve it dont i?
anw, now i learnt my lesson. cant trust anyone. not anymore. no one is reliable except yourself. in order to win, dont depend on others, trust yourself. that's it! hypocrites are all i see. i dont know how to look beyond anymore. why am i so stoopid? i refuse to believe in what i see but... now, U HAVE PROVED ME WRONG! seein is believin! Yes! hahas.
yups. i dislike them. i can openly say it in my blog. if u guys are unhappy, come and fight! dont gossip like the world owns u. u all r NOTHING! i dont hv to act like a mouse and listen to you all. i stand for my own rights, esp what i deserve. i think i dont need to have such lousy ******* [to prevent unhappiness] in our sch! i cant wait for the day... hahahas. im gettin rebellious? hmm, its in my blood. too bad. all these i believe is said in anger but that's really what i feel ... and itts just so irritatin to see u ppl get ur own way. jus coz no1 stand up to u ppl doesnt mean tt u ppl are right!
Argh! ArGh! ARGh!ARGH!!!
my heart is shattered into a million pieces,
and my hope dangles on a string.
There is nothing that i can do to help,
but stare aimlessly at the sky.
How i wish i wasnt born into this earth,
where all i see is suffering and pain.
Everything, everyone is hurting hard,
yet, no one wants to admit it...
What is life to me then?
Oh how i wish...
I wish i wasnt born at all,
for im not strong enough.
I cant endure it by myself,
for my heart is faint.
I have no hope in others,
for hope doesnt exist.
I wish, i wish...
all these are nothing but wishes...
hahas. A youth teacher once ask me, " if u wish for sth, will u try to make it happen? " i said," sometimes..." hahas. this make me wonder if i wish that i wasnt born, can i try to make it happen? hahas. i think it's beyond my own means. if one day i disappear... then maybe my wish come true. then, u ppl can give thnx to God for im gone!!! :D
